Too good to be true

I started working at this awesome job about four years ago. It has been the best job I have ever had. The pay isn't that good, but the respect and the benefits have made it more than a job. It was one of those jobs that I never dreaded going to work. I might not wanted to go to work because I was tired, but I never did not want to go to work because of the job, the atmosphere, or the attitudes in the office. It was "too good to be true".

New management came in last fall. Our executive director and business manager got caught with their hands in the cookie jar. I have always heard if it is too good to be true it usually is.

It was fun and nice while it lasted. In this day and age, I am grateful to have a job.

However, change is in the air, and I already know that all the extras that made it an awesome job are being taken away. I have been mentally and spiritually preparing myself that it was going to happen. I have tried to have a spirit of gratitude that I still have a job. The extras that we once had, will be missed for a season. New people that come into our organization will never know what they missed. With time I will accept they are no longer a part of the "big picture".

It creates feelings and I am not really sure what all the feelings are...I know God restores what has been taken away...I am having to pray that God will restore to me the joy that once was there about my job. I know my spirit of gratitude will not change. However, I know my attitude is now, it is just a job, and I don't like having that attitude.